Day 1 - other actions

I tried everything to get through.  I called over a hundred times, no answer.  I called the French leasing agent to try to get a hold of her, he didn't have her number and there's apparently no phone in the apt.  I was so desperate I called him again at 10PM his time to ask him what the apt rm number was.  He forgot, he could only say 1st floor right - whatever that means.  Well, i just FEDEXed a letter to 1st floor right to the address in France with a note of desperation asking for her to call me.  Only FEDEX said that the highest priority would still take 2 days.

Stupid me, why FEDEX when I can send flowers with a note.  Good, just searched about two dozen websites, apparently, they don't do one day delivery.  Even called a bunch of them only to get a French voicemail which I have no clue what was said.  Well I found what that says they do same day delivery (with a nice caveat that says may reserve the to deliver outside of said date), let's hope that things go well and she gets them and i get a call.  I really need to talk to her.  I am still having irregular heartbeats.  I just need to hear her voice, I just need to get the burning questions off my chest.  There is nothing more pressing right now than getting through to her.  Please, please don't let this be it.  Please say you still have a little bit of feelings for me.  That's all I need.  That's all I need. 

Also bought some cards, I will start writing cards.  The silence and contemplation involved with the act of sitting down to write to someone you love will teach me how to love her better.