Day 11
I am so tired, (same start as the last post... unoriginal, but it's the truth). I am currently very frustrated, it was around 1:25 when i got a text message from my gf, but I CAN"T CALL HER BACK because the freaking iPHONE has a no service message in an area where my blackberry next to me has 6 BARS... too bad i can' tmake an international call w/ the blackberry. I miss my gf a lot, but i don't think she knows that, id on't even think she cares for that matter. today was a shitty day, i am overworked, it's 2 in the morning and i never get enough sleep anymore, but what made the day so shitty was when my gf told me she didn't want me to come to france anymore... :( i was so happy, i thought we really HAD RECONCILED our differences, but i guess not... apparently she still has doubts adn i can feel it, no matter what she says, i can feel her doubts, she's never been close to me the day I left HK, and no matter what she says, i just don't feel loved anymore (funny how i'm the one saying this now...) I wish she would come back to me... but i'm not sure if it will ever happen, i'm really not sure and it makes me sad.... She doesn't want me to go to paris anymore, maybe she's thinking about someone else, maybe she'd rather have someone else come....