Day 11 - enough of the pessimism
I told myself i will be a better person to be a better bf adn i will do that. so scratch out the previous post and let's focus on the new me...
She doesn't want to come because she doesn't feel loved... because i had said i was coming but my F**KING company won't let me F**KING leave because all they ever want to do is squeeze resources so i can't even F**KING quit my F**KING job without getting a straight answer as to when i can get my A** out of there and move on with my life.... and to think, this is what i get working at a billion dollar+ company. Anyhow, back to the more important things in life, my gf feels that i am not committed to going to France... BUT SHE IS WRONG... i miss her so badly and need to see her so much, i'm losing my mind... )But i can understand. the old me would be FURIOUS, i would be angry that she's treating me unfairly because (dude), i'm doing my BEST, (pushing my boss to let me go, but when they say no, they say no, i guess i could leave on unfriendly terms and tarnish my rep within the small industry, but i'm choosing to be a little smarter about the situation) So yes, the old me would be FURIOUS on my can't my gf understand what seems such a simple/rational idea (let's leave on good terms)... so because i dn't know my final date, i obviously can't buy flights, which means i obviously can't commit to when i will arrive in France... all of this leads my gf to think that i don't care... TOTALLY NOT TRUE, but that's how she feels... the old me would have tried to push reason into her... but NOT THE NEW ME!NEWME's ApproachWell, the gf is unhappy not because she doesn't understand the work situation... actually the gf does understand but her desire to say NO to france is because it's emotionally difficult for her... You see, the truth is, she just misses me, A LOT, i like to think :), and because she misses me and has been waiting for me to tell her when i'm coming, she's been getting her hopes up each and every day only to be disappointed when i say i don't know... she's probably getting sad because she misses me and the natural reaction to being sad is to tell me not to come, that way she won't have to be disappointed... she's not disappointed in me, just the whole situation and wondering why i'm not more proactive... WHICH REMINDS me, i NEED to be PROACTIVE... how? By allowing her to know that i ABSOLUTELY can't wait to get my A** to france... so here's the plan, gf if you're out there, this is my demonstration to you that i love you and love to get to France ASAP... I want to go so badly that I have a 4 DAY PLAN MAPPED OUT... as demonstration of how much i think about you and about going to France.Day 1- Sightsee the major landmarks... this is teh day when we explore france together as if we're first timers, getting to know the major historic sites and share w/ each other a lifetime of memories basked in the most romantic city in the world. our agenda is as follows:
- go to La Tour Eiffel
- walk down hand in hand along the champs elysee
- visit an impressionist museum and roll our eyes in awe at monet, renoir, and the rest of the greats
- eat very very nice french food
- take a walk along the seine and enjoy the beauty of the weather, enjoy holding her hand as we pass the gardens
- at night take a river cruise along the seine and enjoy the beautiful view of the nighttime landscape
- then... we'll i won't go into what's next.... but we'll be staying in a nice hotel in PAKRIDay 2
- the get to know the ins and outs of PAKRI day...
- with the major landmarks done, today is teh bask in the glory of paris day, trying to immerse ourselves in the local city of france
- goals, hit up a small french bakery to try really fresh bread in the morning
- visit the local street shops in paris
- visit what a local paris book store and coffee shop is like (we like books adn we like coffee)
- take teh subway together holding hands
- watch a show in PAKRI that evening
- basically do what we can to try to blend in and understand the parisian lifestyle, this means we will be eating a lot of different foodsDay 3
i call this the get to know my gf's lifestyle day
- go visit where she lives, where she goes to school
- maybe stop by the palace of versailles...
- go help her do shoopping, errands, anything that she needs to get done,
- the make her life better while you're in pakri for after you're in pakri dayDay 4
- i just want to spend time w/ her, it doesn't matter where we go, what we do, i just want to be with her and i will be so sad when this day is over...