Day 2
You finally called! But only for 10 seconds, why?!? Can't you hear that i'm dying in pain, why did you use up all your minutes so that by the time you called me, you only had a minute left?? Did you call me because you got the message on the flowers? Did you call because the French apt man told you how urgent and desperate I was? Did you call because you read my emails? Did you call because you thought of me? Why did you call and why only 10 seconds? You said you would turn on your Treo, but you haven't. I can't get through to you again, AHH!! it's so painful to finally have you call, i imagine what it would be like, the questions i'd ask, i imagined it a thousand different ways, but not this... not only 10 seconds to hear you say that you have no time to talk.... without anything else, you hung up, you left, I can't reach you again. all the pain rushing back. i want to cry again. why are you treating me this way? why? doesn't our anniversary date mean anything to you? don't i mean anything anymore, not even one little bit, not even worth more than 10 seconds of your time?
You don't understand you much you've just intensified the pain. I hate myself for just letting you go like that, i really thought you would turn on the Treo. I really did.