Day 8

I am so tired, i got back well past one this evening and will have to get up early to drive to san mateo for a meeting in person. i don't know how i am going to make it.. actually i do know, everything i get tired, like right now, i'm just going to power through by thinking about my wonderful gf and keep telling myself that whatever it is that i am doing, it will be better for us and as long as it will be better for us, then i'm down to keep on going. i love her and i hope she knows it and will love me back, i hope she loves me only and will never love someone else, miss someone else, think about someone else, or say sweet things to someone else, i love her and i need her badly to love me only.... selfish i know, but i can't do without her... that's just the way it is, that's just the way things have become, that's just the way things are... not much to it, i just love her that much.