Why her?

Why am I doing this, why do I hurt, what does my love still burn?  Why her?  Simple.  She is the most beautiful and amazing woman I have ever laid eyes upon and she makes my heart beat as if I were a child again.

If I were to list every thing that makes her so wonderful, I would run out of words, language and time before I'd run out of good things to say about her.  I once said she was "graciously ambitious".  Well, she's so much.  In our seven years, I've learned that:

she has the most beautiful, unique and perfect set of hands that I've ever seen...

she can be tough when she needs to be but always so kind and gentle when she's by my side...

she can hold her own in a hostile environment but be as sweet as a lamb when at home...

she is wise beyond her years but yet is still so idealistic...

she is a romantic who knows how to enjoy romance...

she has the most beautiful voice when she hums a song thinking no one is listening...

she is capable to making the unhappiest person happy, bringing rays of happiness into an otherwise empty and wasted life...

when she skips with joy, the whole world just stops and feels right...

her eyes, (i can't talk about this one without having my own get filled with tears) she has the most BEAUTIFUL pair of eyes - ones that radiant the inner depths of her beauty, so full of love, care, understanding, hope, so full of everything we need more of in this world, staring into her eyes always makes me feel like the luckiest man alive...

her youthful enthusiasm, desire to have fun, her spirit... i regret that I did so much to take that away...  if i ever could have the chance, I will protect it as i once protected my own little world of unhappiness, only this time, I know what's important...

her ability to fall asleep at any time and sleep for a long time, it's a sign of a good soul that's at peace with herself...

her laugh, the kind that signals naive joy (never ever with any kind of cruel intent in her laugh), she has the best laughter...

her ability to endure, to sacrifice... to endure and sacrifice being with me... my biggest regret is that I now feel that i didn't make it worth her while, and this thought pains me to death.  I won't lie, i tried, i tried hard to make her happy to show her my love... i just didn't know how and for all my love for her, i didn't understand that i needed to learn how to show her my love...

i could go on... and i will... but just not now, i can't, it is becoming to painful thinking back to all the happy moments and how wonderful she is...

I love her more than anything.